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Decorated the Christmas tree last night... almost by miself really, because I got in an argument with my step dad and left him alone to fix the tree straight (not that, in the end, it wasn't still me who finished that task as well) than he payed me back by leaving me alone with the decorating (and that finishing I mentioned)... fair enough, maybe... but it was okay! really okay! I just had the tree to myself and no one to bother me by moving stuff from where I put them or constantly asking me why I put them there and not there...

Aaaaand... I could listen to music!

It's amazing how, the older they get, the more away from the pleasing sounds the elders get... My mom keeps invoking the 'not the right time' motive, or her headaches... like I don't have headaches too. <.< My step dad won't listen to anything but popular music or taraf, which is waaaaay down on my liking list... and theeen... I end up praying for their departure whenever I am in the mood for some music. That, because they also go bananas if they see me connected to my mp3 player... <.<

But last night they let me be... also, my mom was amazingly nice to give me half a bottle of pepsi, which is waaay over her kindness levels!

I shouldn't drink pepsi, according to the neuro doc I've seen last year on a periodic EEG checkup. Not coke, not coffee, not wine, and no club activity for me either... oh, and possibly no computer and tv... I'm okay with the TV, the alcohol and the clubs (music clubs, I mean... where there's that insane and, lately, utterly boring music  - apparently that's what the zombi people that frequent the place ask for lately... I guess it's hard to change your jumping up'n down to more than one freakin' beat when your brain's already drowsy from all the cocktails and 'dance')... but coke and computer? No effin' way!

Sooo... ever since mom is the only one that does care about my health enough... I generally have to find hiding spots for my Pepsis... not last night...


I also got to finish reading the Clockwork Angel, by Cassandra Clare... which was, again, quite predictable in the end (wished I could yell at the characters at the latest chapters, but, oh, well... Thomas HAD to die...) but a pleasure to read in whole.

I have no knowledge of London, now or in the past, so whether the places really existed had little importance to me. But it was nice to read in the end all the disclaimers.... Wish more authors did that. As far as her human aspects, I start to really look up to the author, which is really a lot, considering what I came to think of the contemporary literature... young- adult, Noble-prized or whatever... (the Noble-prized I value least, in fact... especially the ones awarded in the past few years... I really wonder what kind of fossils decide where the awards go <.< ) and especially of their authors (because, let's just face it! Their books are parts of them, their characters are made of them and their dreams and their view of the world... mainly... and a bit of marketing, of course XD )

Aaaaad I learned, with great surprise, that there will be a 4th Infernal devices book... O.O

Why?! I see no point in going on any further with that series... the bad guy got the mega-spit, the main couple finally BECAME a couple, and the book universe was at a good point of finally balancing. I wouldn't even bother with the evil bro... he seemed quite retarded if you ask me... so... WHY????

Popularity...

How can people believe that by throwing parties for a huge number of people (about 500 ppl) can accomplish more than raising the person's popularity?

I was just discussing with a colleague today about one of our university's student organization, let's call it Bm, that was dissolved by the current dean the year he got named.

As a quick fill-up, the organization was very warm and helpful to the students, especially the newbies, like we were for its last 2 years, as there was almost always someone there when you looked for them, unlike the student association people, that were generally thought by us freshmen to be some sort of ghost-people that only showed up in rare circumstances, generally when we didn't need them any longer.

I was in the Bm choir so I pretty much had an idea about what was going on there... therefore I felt I just had to intervene when this colleague insisted that they were not such a big deal, though he agreed the Christmas caroling was indeed cute as we would come sing in the classes and give them candies while at it.

This lead him to tell me of some guy that would throw parties where something like 500 people would show up every time and how much he thought this guy was accomplishing by that... complaining that people now would not stand up for each other or help each other when the case (which was what the Bm crew would do at any time, any day, no mater if you were a member or not, but he failed to see this)... as if the 500 people that came to get drunk and hook up with other random people at the said parties would have, in fact, developed some kind of brotherhood, or who knows what... though when I asked him, he did admit they didn't...

Some people are so naive sometimes it makes me feel like Gandalf the White...

water to snow

I recently saw this amazing vid where some people were boiling different quantities of water and throwing them in an air temperature of -32 F... I am too lazy to convert it to Celsius, but I'd figure it's below 0...

If the weather stays like this, I think I might try produce snow for Christmas soon... necessary or not. So forget Mere Noel! I'll be stealing her job this year! >:3

I'll have to go 'donate' some blood for some tests tomorrow and I'm most 'eager' to do so... especially as I recall almost fainting last Friday first on low tension, than on Pepsi-cled  high tension, based on the simple silly fact that I didn't eat a thing that morning. (yeah, smart, right? >.< ) Good thing the class tomorrow consists mainly of trying to keep up with some slides while sitting... We will possibly have to make some practice tests later, but I learned that my colleagues are more than eager to do it all themselves, so I needn't worry about that. :P

I have also helplessly fallen in love with a little tech piece... while it's purely platonic, ofc, I ended up having quite a lousy mood these days when I learned I'll have to wait till autumn next year to get one too because the ones in my country, while quite more complicated and packed with gadgets, are more expensive... well, I did found one with an acceptable price, true indeed, but it was pretty much the opposite of the things that impressed me on this little tech I'm holding for the week only. *sobs*

I'm talking about an e-reader... one that, after some research over, I've learned that it's far from being the greatest of it's kind, but pretty cheap and cute. I'm probably mostly impressed because this is the first time I've ever got the chance to use one to my discretion, but even so, it's still a pleasure to read books on it! ^^

The first book I read, called Tangled, by some author with some good reviews whose name I am, again, too lazy to look up again, was in fact quite on the bad side of my tastes... yet I've read it with the same obsession I read the first Neil Gaiman book I ever got my paws on (compliments to the same person that borrowed me the gadget this time)... obviously, not the same pleasure... but the pleasure of shuffling back and forth through the pages helped me reach it's end...

There are so many books I found there that caught my eye, I just can't help but stupidly wish for autumn to come at last. XD (it is stupid, because that particular year is the final year of my license studies and will be the most challenging yet to witness)... or, maybe, this will keep me motivated enough to learn my arse out this winter and score good marks at all of my exams so that I can get a scholarship in the next semester as well, and then afford one of those stupidly expensive e-readers in my territory.

Anyone has any ideas where can I find non-infectious diseases that affect elephants, and possibly a description of them and, if not too wild, a possible treatment for each? XD

Writer's Block: Rescue mission

If someone intentionally set fire to your home and you had ten minutes to get out, would you try to save the arsonist or your belongings?


The arsonist... so that I can take my time killing him/her sssllooooowwwwlllyyy right after s/he payed for all he destroyed and more (the house needs repaired, the neighbours too, taxes to pay... and he/she is going to pay dearly for taking so many days of my life for something that wasn't supposed to happen in the 1st place...)

and in the end... the ultimate price! *evilest laugh possible*


and this is because, obviously, my cat is not retarded enough to stay in a burning house, no mater how much she hates the outsides... besides, I can always dip the bastard arsonist's head in cat food so she will follow and eat him/her up. :P

anyone else in my house is grown up enough to save themselves and me at the same time :P

Writer's Block: The final frontier

If you could only visit one Web site (other than LiveJournal) for the rest of your life, which would you choose, and why?


DEVIANTART!!!!

I have most of my friends there... and I can get artsy inspiration... and I can draw and post my drawings there and get feedback, and I'd never be out of date with news regarding art...

Not to mention I'd be taking commissions soon so I'd be getting meh pocket money from there too... Gosh... I could LIVE there for the rest of meh life! XD

Now I know

... where my donkey stubbornness comes from.

I thought it comes from genes at first... but it's waaaay deeper than this... it's my whole existence that goes like that...

I guess I should have expected it... after all I was born because of being too stubborn to let go of that uterus aria I took over as an embryo, and I refused to die even as a child no mater what my idiot father tried (things like keeping me in freezing water hoping I get a pneumonia, or scaring me to death, or stuff like that) ... yeah, I can't believe it myself either but, anyway... thanks daaaad.



Now I realize it has got to my veins... and deeper. There's no one trying to kill me now (except for myself, by eating junk-food and drinking coke and stuff like that), but there are things that go...

Like... Wanting to eat ice-cream while full winter outside... or my stomach refusing sweets when I have the house full...

Or refusing to learn properly and get maximum grades in school as a child, like my mom and teachers would have liked of me... that happens now too, if I think about it...

or... normally I am asexual 99%... like... falling asleep when watching porn, concentrating more on the anatomy for my drawings even when I get the slightest interest, never realizing (or caring) when someone makes moves on me... stuff like that.

EXCEPT when I'm fasting... when I'm not eating meat and not supposed to watch or think pervy.... why the meat? because technically, the more meat u eat, the more lusty u get... thing is, I'm the exact opposite... whenever I don't eat meat I get the strangest dreams and feelings and thoughts...

and I know why! It's because I'm not supposed to have them while not eating meat... or strawberries for that matter...

I think I'll go get a strawberry dose... it's far funnier to be myself, really...

Boy Love is weird...

I never had the patience to watch Yaoi before... always ended up cursing either the uke, either the seme at the middle of it all and just close the damn thing and never open it again... I tried watching yuri and I ended up the same in all but one case... and that was Strawberry Panic... which I still can't tell what hooked me up... maybe the fact there were more than just one stories in there, so more than one ways to trick my sensitive boredom...

Anyway... because of that manga I'm drawing (Str8 Yaoi... read 2-3 journals bellow), I recently realized I have no idea about the cliche's you get there...

So I packed up some patience and searched for the yaoi I heard of during my looong time haunting manga-anime forums and communities, all squirming with living yayoi fangirls that would tell me I'm insane...

the first I remembered was a failure... I only found it on one site, and it was on Veoh (which is a group of romanian haters which I will sent to the deepest pits of hell if I ever get the chance *gorevil laugh*)... but when I searched for more info on mal, I leaned that, for this time only, I should thank them for forbidding their streams to my country... it won't repeat =.= ... it was incest. <.<

Sooo... I searched some more reliable sources than freaky fangirls on manga-anime communities, and found something rather decent: Junjou Romantica (for some reason it was originally stuck in my mind as Shoujou Romantica... and I actually DO know what shoujou means <.< ).

Now all cool, just that one day before I found this really funny little thread about yaoi cliches on some obscure manga-anime forum, and I had the curiosity to read it and share quotes with others... which made me remember it even easier...

So there I am, watching JR, constantly pointing to the screen... 'Ah-ha-ha! The uke cries! BAAAKAAA!' or stuff like that...

so in the end I learned nothing... v.v|||| (they're just too pathetic to fit them in my manga... my uke actually HAS a personality... and my seme is a girl <.< ... yeah... I just love messing up with my stories, and indirectly with my brain. hehe...)

Also... WTH is it with all those teddy-bears?! Are they Pedobear ancestors or what????

Oh, right... and the other day (when I acutely needed a soapy yaoi confessing line, I found this yaoi chatroom on devart... totally blew off a fangirl's brains when I described my manga as 'Straight and gay' (which is what it is, really). Oh, I just love this kind of reactions... too bad I couldn't see her face. Bwahahaha... (oh, well... I should probably be a bit more grateful to her in the end... she did offered me a line that was so simple it's no wonder I couldn't think of it... I need to simplify my thinking, really...)


p.s.
I really am not homophobic or anything... quite the contrary... I came across the idea of gay and lesbians and all and actually considered it for a while a couple of years ago, and my very first sincere reaction was pure adoration... I mean, to be able to love someone regardless the gender and society issues... that's just LOVE.

Then again... that would include only pansexuals in the end... and bisexuals (because for both gay and lesbians the gender DOES matter)... but I had no idea of the term back then... Yet again, I believe in the right to privacy. So, no mater what, people are still people in the end... just a little adjective/difference in taste shouldn't make a person, right? ^^

Even so... I am TOTALLY against child molesters! aaand any other kind of incest really... bleh... and if we're at it, mechaphiles too... how th can you fall inlove with a object? That's simply selfish and egocentric of the person, not to mention RAPING poor defenseless OBJECTS (we'll take a break here to exclude dildos and other related stuff that are actually designed to be raped <.< ). Also zoophiles... *cough* okay... I stop now... this is not the reason I wrote this blog. <.<

Writer's Block: Take me to your leader!

Do you believe in UFOs? Do you have a gut dis/belief or do you rely on empirical proof?


Yes, I do!

Humans know almost anything about their own planet... UFOs might actually be not outer-space but really terrestrial-based... or even outer-space... 

Never really met any aliens, nor do I think they would bother visit Earth and mate with earthlings (eww... ), nor do I believe they created us by mixing their DNA with us (which I should probably take as that mating I mentioned a few words ago)... nor that they would like to conquer us (our planet is already on a point of decay that no longer can be stopped, no mater the means... maybe we are the ones that should consider invading others...)

Yet, wouldn't the universe be useless if it was empty? I mean... I look at myself and I realize that astrology is mostly bull-shit (I'm a Leo but I qualify as a Scorpio), so there must be some REAL use for all those planets and galaxies around, don't you think?

I am absolutely sure there's nothing in Existence that has no purpose at all, and what could a planet be best at rather than sustaining life, eh?

So I'm not relying on either gut nor proof... just logic. ^^

Females die hard

I mean it!

My mom asked me to get some fish ready for cooking while she was off, confessing...

I left the fish in the fridge for an hour or so while I was recovering for the shopping I came back from... than started removing the scales, traditionally, completely sure they're long dead... therefore not removing the respiratory system from the very beginning... and I start cleaning the fish thoroughly...

when I turn it on the other side I get the surprise to see the paper sheet bloody... which wouldn't happen to a dead creature... but I say 'who knows' and get on with it, only to jump away, seconds later, when the fish tail-slaps me and starts trying to struggle...

The more I order it to go die already, the more it struggles, even after I remove the respiratory system completely, which starts to look freaky... so I finally decide to humanely put down the creature by brain damage, with the tip of the same knife I was using to clean up the scales and all (FYI the brain never hurts... it's it's feeding membrane that does, but once blasted, the animal loses all conscience). Easy said... now I know the fish has a really small brain, so good luck hitting it <.< Especially ever since I was instructed (to my cat's disappointment} to keep the head attached to the body.

Luckily I get it from the first stab, so I only get a bit of short-circuit struggles (note: the knife was metal, the nervous system works a bit electrical... therefore it wasn't pain that caused them, really) and then I can finish the job peacefully... and find I was working with a male fish...

the next two fish wouldn't die that easily though... I removed both the respiratory system and stabbed the brain... still they struggle some more, getting me to repeat the stabbing a couple of times per each...

I later find they were both females... figures... <.<

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on another note I got to check the faculty today for some sort of event that has been going on... about the rabies and all...

while heading to the entrance I think 'hmm, ever since I already have a pass for a month on the surface public transports, thanks to the subway strike, maybe I'll go visit Dr. Badiu after this... I haven't talked to him in a while' (Dr Badiu is the doctor that allowed me to stick around his office and help with the consultations in my first faculty year. I learned so much from him! ^^ he's like a profession dad or something as far as I'm concerned) I meet a colleague inside and drag her around, filling not only my, but her arms as well with promotional papers and all...

I also go check the presentations, that actually just got to finish by the time we get there, and while I'm leaning over the balcony to see which of our colleagues are around, who do you think I see? Dr. Badiu, flipping from time to time in his chair, most probably there from early morning ever since he looks not only exhausted but also eager for the whole thing to finally finish. I totally understand the feeling. Been there yesterday for 2-3 hours and spent the time reading Blood Coven rather than bother listen how they were pumping each other's ego and nothing else... they probably kept doing that ever since this morning too, ever since that is the kind of speech I get to hear while entering the hall.

I got to say 'hi' soon after, ever since I was smart enough to get there during the last of the 'ego' speeches... and the whole event finishes soon...

I stick around some more to get a cute cardboard ruler, a veterinary products nomenclature book that I find very useful and some other meaningless stuff...

Then I go home only to drop my bag and head to the local hypermarket to get my cat some food and so... where I meet one of my High-school class-mates who recognizes me. If she wouldn't have said 'hi' I swear I wouldn't have realized it's her.

really now! I feel left behind. everyone's changing lately, even my best friend did, as stated in the earlier entry... I stay the same boring creature as always... an old kid. >.

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The blogging life... heh...

so umm, yea... long time no update I guess... wonder if anyone would care anyway. :P

*cough*

anyway... life's as it is... not exactly interesting, not exactly boring... heh. I wish it was boring sometimes... maybe then I'd have some time for other things I have to fail doing now... like keep updating my manga for example? I really should, ever since it passed quite some time since I last did that. >.<

But still no time... and now I got myself into other drawing projects as well... not to mention I'm behind on school work as well... *sighs*

the faulty is really great lately... I mean last week I've been around the clinic and stuck around some vets, getting to see quite a few stuff, like glaucoma, a detartring on a papillon that also gets a small seizure because of the anesthetics but we get informed it's not anything to worry about and that this kind of things happen sometimes but don't affect the animal at all,

went to obstetrical surgery too and witnessed neutralizing for 2 dogs of different genders... really interesting.

private life didn't change much... just my best friend went a bit insane but also getting curiously religious... and giving me a 2 weeks deadline to 'awaken'... in other words to realize whatever she realized and I fail to understand at this point...
talking about friends who should know about one's aversion to deadlines, eh? <.<

I started a separate blog about this, but I won't let ya know where to find it... I'm curious if anyone will. :P

In the meantime a friend gave me this really fun vampires book series, blood coven... I really recommend it as a boredom cure... waaay too funny and has some logic in it as well... unlike other books *cough* Twilight*cough* we know...

off to reading now... c ya!